iamamiwhoami; play

9

Category : Entertainment, art

Play the ball as it lies, play the course as you find it, and if you cannot do either, do what is fair.

playgolf

dance

play - v. intr. to occupy oneself in amusement, sport, or other recreation; to take part in a game; (in music) to emit sound or be sounded in performance; - v. tr. to pretend to be, mimic the activities of; to use or manipulate, especially for one’s own interests; - n. fun or jesting

Lyrics (approx.):

Moving close now
Your hands just knock me off my feet
Yeah, like a puppet now
I cannot move to my own beat

But I can dance tonight
and make up songs for us to sing
You hold my heart because it’s cheap
And to your rhythm I will shout
my love for play

Lala la la lala la lala la la la ( la x 90 )
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la

Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la

Take off your hat
and pull a rabbit out for me
I’m like a lark, now
I play on my back and on my knees
(I play on my back and on my my my my ma)

So I will
Run, now. Run, now
Run, now. Run, now
Run, now. Run, now
Run, now. Run, now

But I can dance tonight
and make up songs for us to sing (I can play on my back and knees)
You hold my heart because it’s cheap (I play with my self it seems)
And to your rhythm I will shout
my love for play

Lala la la lala la lala la la la ( la x 90 )
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la

Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la
Lala la la lala la lala la la la

Dance, now. Dance, now
Dance, now. Dance, now
Dance, now. Dance, now

(wikia)

There are some bits missing, but, as expected, we’re in the field we were left in at the end of good worker. We can only assume Clump has dragged MO up to the road and now he’s releasing her, removing the white cloth that was keeping her imprisoned. Of course, I immediately think of a straightjacket a mentally deranged person wears during treatment, to prevent harming itself. Clump pushes MO away, the latter turns towards him, reluctant, he gives her a ‘go on, you’re on your own, go!’ gesture and she leaves. Notice the motion is still from right to left, she’s still traveling back (or maybe deeper under – the audio behind these images really comes to sustain this idea).

To me, the fact that she’s not fully dressed in the Clump suit, but only wearing it on her shoulders sounds like a wolf dressed into a sheep. It appears that the only way to travel on this level of consciousness, you have to become a part of it, look like the things ‘inhabiting’ it. Thus the suit becomes a means of protection. I cannot omit mentioning that it reminds me of the knight suit CU wears in Y.

wolf

As we move forward, we can see MO cutting the field, looking back from time to time. She doesn’t appear to know where she’s going, she just know she’s moving closer to something. We can now notice that she carries a golf club in her hand. It’s an instrument, just like the sword in drops. But what is it for? She first drags it along, then she uses it as a cane, then she uses it to test the field, after which she knows what it is and ‘bats’ it, as if ready to hit the ball, and in the end, she points it towards the sky. An elongation of her hand. It’s the sky she wants to reach (it was the sky she was aiming at during good worker as well). Which is funny, because when we think of golf, we think of holes in the ground.

One interesting thing: is it a coincidence that the golf club looks like the musical symbol for a note? I don’t think so. And the track being called play? This might as well be a confession of iam’s love for music. A statement that through music you are enabled to reach certain levels of the self, why not. I’m saying this because in the next images, she’s using the club as a cane, wearing it reversed (still looks like a note). If you want, it also looks like an I. Which I don’t think it’s a coincidence either.

Due to the presence of heavy, cloudy weather and lightning in the distance, and the fact that MO points the metal golf club towards the sky, there’s a general belief that she desires to be struck by lightning. There are no clear images to suggest this, but the way she looks in the following footage could imply that it has happened. A violent enlightenment?

Next images show MO in a dark place which reminds us of the barn in the last pre-video and the hut in O. She’s standing in an open door, light strobes hitting her face from time to time, just like lightnings. Is she home? Has she made it to the place she’s been traveling towards ever since sever? She does look like she’s comfortable here and she appears to be the mistress of the house, her posture and moves speak so. In the middle of this wooden room, a familiar figure: the Clump creature. He’s everywhere she goes! And he appears to be happy to see her now, look at him shaking it!

I remember when we first saw the five Clump creatures at the end of drops, we were hoping for a dancing spree and here we have it, finally, exactly how we imagined it. It appears that dance has a particular meaning with iamamiwhoami. I am thinking communion and letting go of the body and mind, setting both of them into motion and harmonizing them with the beat of music and the kinetics of other dancers.

meow

The thing I have noticed about this special dance in play is that it’s a little bit chaotic towards the end. If you look at the beginning of the second stanza, MO tries to make the Clump synchronize its moves to hers. See how she moves her arms and legs when she sings so I will run now, run now. She tries to keep it organized (keep her mind, thoughts, imagination organized, have control upon them), she even tries to impose some choreography, as opposed to the dance in sever, she’s the one leading now, she closes her eyes and continues dancing with him.

What she didn’t expect was for him to start multiplying again. She doesn’t open her eyes until she’s hit by one of the clumps, she doesn’t notice things getting out of control. While she lets her body and mind loose, something else is being unleashed as well, five times more powerful. Those Clumps really are unpredictable and each moves at its own will now, each on his own beat and style. Towards the end, MO does not feel she can keep pace, she doesn’t like the chaos around her (she just sees it), she’s overwhelmed, the clumps have become so many and so independent they don’t even take notice she’s among them anymore and they hit her while they dance, they have the potential to hurt her. That’s the individual losing control of his mind. The hit in the head is a wake up call, a moment of lucidity in a deranged person’s mind, the moment she realizes that what is going on is not right, things are out of control, too many uncoordinated dancers, the floor is unbalanced. Maybe this deep dark barn is not the place to be in either. This is not home and she’s not one of the clumps. So she leaves the dance floor and retreats into the shade, her eyes, wide open and aware now, seeking for an exit once again.

whereto

I cannot deny this is a very sexual track. I knew it would be something special ever since the sample has emerged. I do not know whether this is a collaboration with other another artist or not (probably not), I just know that the shift iamamiwhoami has taken with play is good news. Can’t help but wonder what’s installed for us next.

Again, I have to mention that for me, the fact that the videos go from light to dark and the covers go from dark to light is a sign of self discovery. Diving deep within to discover one’s iamness.

In the end, I’m going to include some words of David Lynch’s wisdom:

It’s better not to know so much about what things mean or how they might be interpreted or you’ll be too afraid to let things keep happening. Psychology destroys the mystery, this kind of magic quality. It can be reduced to certain neuroses or certain things, and since it is now named and defined, it’s lost its mystery and the potential for a vast, infinite experience.

I partially agree with  It’s better not to know so much about what things mean or how they might be interpreted. I think that if I replaced ‘know’ with something else, the meaning of his statement would become invalid. It’s not that you have to know what they mean when someone already knows (! if) and they share it. It’s what it means for you and how you interpret it that matters. These things cannot be avoided. Everything the eye sees, the brain processes, therefore everything has a meaning. Lack of meaning means something too! Whatever I am doing in these posts on forsakenorder.com is not intended to make the mystery and magic dissolve. It’s just how I see things at one point. I am totally for infinite experience. Anyway, it’s this feeling I’ve been having with the kin series, I don’t particularly want to write an article immediately when a video appears. Sometimes I fight myself to do it.

I think this cookie crumbles just the right way and at a right speed. The experiencing of their music is becoming richer and more savory. Shall we let music take over? Sure… but it’ll never be just about music with iamamiwhoami, will it?

Read 2020k’s wonderful audio analysis of play here.

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iamamiwhoami; good worker

12

Category : Entertainment, art

One’s body is a GOOD WORKER, it does everything by the book, limited by the boundaries of its working inner systems.

One’s mind likes to PLAY

gw2
gw

Lyrics (approx)

You make a neat and tidy house,
a good worker does
A pinion of labors men
as capable as trust

From a lower point of you,
Comes the underlying truth
Keeping yourself unaware
Confident without a care
Locking out your little mind
Recognizing time has passed
Ready for some further use,
denial is a virtue

I make a good and steady friend,
a companion through life
But who am I, when all I am
is your designated wife?

From a lower point of you,
Comes the underlying truth
Keeping yourself unaware,
Confident without a care
Locking out your little mind
Recognizing time has passed
Ready for some further use,
denial is a virtue

Sadly I have not a friend where you’re taking me

(wikia)

I think it’s safe for us to say that this new series follows MO closer on a journey similar to the one we were talking about in the days of the Volunteer. But it’s always been a journey with iamamiwhoami, the name itself is a road to understanding. A constant movement towards self-discovery (the nucleus of evolution), mostly going on inwards, cleverly portrayed through outward events.

If there’s one thing I’ve always loved about the people working on this project is their preference for those core myths and archetypes which make individual transformations so easy to understand just by enabling the viewer to empathize, thus experience. The key to the success of the concept imho.

Good worker is a transition video, reason for which there’s an apparent sensation that nothing is happening. Well… not much is happening, but many things in there mean something. Again, to me, all those types of movement resonate because they dictate shifts of perspective, which are so fascinating (besides mind bugging, haha). Sure, I wished some of these images wouldn’t be repeating themselves. You know… we’ve seen this in T, this in N and we’ve seen that in Y, but there’s a reason for their presence and that’s because this is a road back.

But let’s get to the video itself and see what those images speak to us.

We were wondering what happened at the end of drops. MO was then still in the basement of the building, standing, ready to ‘fight’ the clumps, her eyes closing, her body ready for whatever was coming. Good worker begins with MO laying on her back (first shift of perspective), her eyes still closed, her hair spread (boy, that’s a lot of hair!), breathing profoundly as if during deep sleep. Again, the audio increases in intensity, suggesting we’re entering yet another level of MO’s consciousness. She opens her eyes and looks straight forward. This is where she stops her ‘drop’ for now.

She looks to the right, then to the left. Where is she? When, all of a sudden, another drop. Or is it? It depends on who’s experiencing. As MO’s laying on her back, her perspective is changed and, while she travels horizontally in space, the viewer sees her moving vertically, going downwards.

The director changes perspective again and now we see MO’s profile, and our eyes know how she’s going to move now. She appears to be outside, wind gently moving her locks (so much hair!). By the way she  opens her mouth to breathe in and practically tastes the air, adjusting both her lips and nostrils to its aroma and smell, we know she likes it. It MUST be better than that sterile building she was trapped in! She’s comfortable here, so she opens her eyes and begins to sing.

It’s interesting that she doesn’t look at us when she sings ‘you make a neat and tidy house’, but looks straight at the camera when she utters ‘a good worker does’.

And there it is, the movement is established: she’s not falling, she’s not even walking by herself. She’s being dragged by a hairy Clump – probably the one she went through in ‘drops’ -, against her will – she’s wrapped into what appears to be clump hair and tied thoroughly into a cocoon. Notice how she looks down towards the clump when she sings ‘as capable as trust’? It really seems to be like a love-hate relationship with this entity throughout sever, drops and good worker. What are its true intentions? Is it a friend or is it a foe?

If I were to think about this moment only, the fact that she looks like a cocoon and the clump is taking her somewhere is not bad. On the contrary. A cocoon is just a stage in one’s transformation, however, a stage in which one is quite vulnerable, as it cannot move by itself. The Clump appears to put a lot of effort into carrying MO, she seems to be a pretty heavy burden if you ask me, his feet look tired at times and his back gets hunched, yet he doesn’t complain, he just moves because he must substitute for her feet.

It’s a road back that they’re taking. They travel from right to left. Hauled back to reality? In this case, the hairy clump must be the cure, its hair wrapping her body some sort of healing, protective material.

I know all this back and forth from reality to fantasy, all these changes of perspective are confusing, but this is the road of becoming, of evolution. You also have to see things from ‘a lower point of view’, even if forced, because the ‘lower point of view’ is able to offer you basic answers about yourself/life – ‘underlying truth’.

There’s a reason for which they pass through this forest (I’m actually given the impression there are more that one forests) and so many types of trees. Trees, forests in general, are a sign of transformation and of maturity. You enter a forest and if you look around, you can practically see the variety of life. Trees in different stages of development.

A second MO character appears in the video. She’s in a car with a lowered window – to see things better (!!), for it seems to be raining. Again, really love the angle the director chose for these images. Even though she travels horizontally in space, we’re being given the impression she’s moving upwards, the trees passing by becoming levels. This MO is the opposite of the cocoon.  She’s more polished, she looks thoughtful. To me, she might as well be the result of the cocoon hatching.

Another interesting thing is that MO in the car sees the trunks of the trees while traveling, as opposed to dragged MO, who only sees the crowns of the trees. This is a clear sign that the first MO is anchored in reality (like trees in Earth), while the second is living in a fantasy world (the crowns of the trees aspiring towards the sky, anchored in nothing). MO in the car never looks up, towards the sky, she always looks down, towards her feet, where the ground is.

Love the expressions on MOs face when she sings the second stanza.

- I made a good and steady friend - she looks comfortable, she smiles and almost snuggles the hair she’s ‘trapped’ in
– a companion through life – looks upwards, hopeful
- but who am I when all I am
- there’s fear in her eyes, they’re wide open and can’t really focus, a clear sign of uncertainty. There’s a lot of regret in this verse. All I am is not enough, one of the saddest things.
– is your designated wife – she doesn’t even move her lips when this verse is sang, her eyes just seem to look for ways to get out of this situation. It’s her way of denying this status.

The fact that the stanzas are sang by the dragged MO and the chorus is sang by the MO in the car is very important as well. The stanzas are characterized by words which describe inner turmoil, a fight, while the chorus is a constant reassurance that things could be settled if certain parts of the self are suppressed. Maybe MO in the car is not the perfected dragged MO, maybe each of them are one side of MO. The sound of letting go a side of you…

It’s a dialogue between these two sides, spread with mild reproaches: fantasy MO scolds reality MO for having a limited life. You make a neat and tidy house - you act just like a designated wife, not getting out of your routine, you’re just like a person who does everything by the book and gets her good work in the end. As opposed to you, I made a good and steady friend, a companion through life – my imagination, which gives me freedom and breaks boundaries. However, you, being the other side, makes me a designated wife too and, while you might be content with that status, I am not, for I am more than that, that is not my all. If you listen carefully to the track, at this point, the words are accompanied by whistling. It’s more than clear fantasy MO is indifferent towards the status of a designated wife.

On the other hand, reality MO reproaches fantasy MO that she locks herself into an imaginary world, keeping herself unaware of the truth, denying the facts of reality, displaying an apparent confidence, derived from lack of care.

Maybe these are not reproaches, but just descriptions. In the end, the ideal is for the two sides to co-exist. A thought which is not necessarily accepted by both: take me where I’m not to find where you’re taking me.

Now that I take a look back, I can imagine the two MO traveling in perfect parallelism throughout good worker. They’re talking to each other facing each other. That being said, what is there to come? At the end of  the video, the car stops in the middle of the road. Is there going to be an ideal encounter? Or is this the point where reality MO stops from trying to convince fantasy MO to be hauled back and the point where fantasy MO asks to be taken even deeper, into a place where she will never be found? Which side is going to be let go?

In the end, it must be said that this is not just a road back, it’s a backwards march having the purpose to fill in the blanks in the story. The entire kin series I assume.

For example, I now understand why the motif of the tree is used so often. Just like the human being, a tree is two sided, anchored both in reality (its roots, like a human body) and in fantasy (its branches, like the human mind). I also understand the use of two MOs. Not necessarily because one represents the Mother and the other the Daughter (even though, at times, it makes sense), but because they represent those two sides of a human being, one more active than the other.

This might as well be the principle the final kin product is based on. How did bullet call it? A perfect combination of music and film. That is of music and visual art. Two sides: the Apollonian and the Dionysian. Read about it, it’s interesting.

Ah, and since I’ve touched the body vs. brain matter, take a look at those two stanzas! You make a neat and tidy house - where and house is the body (limited, perishable) and I make a good and steady friend, a companion through life – where friend/companion refer to the mind (never limited, always reliable and prolific). In both cases, ‘to make’ means ‘to represent’. The body is a GOOD WORKER, does everything by the book, limited by the boundaries of its working systems. The mind likes to PLAY.

LE:

With the last two verses changed into Sadly I have not a friend where you’re taking me, their meaning changed a bit as well, yet not that much. If her friend is her mind/ imagination/ freedom, it means that the place she’s dragged towards is the opposite of that. Reality. She’s still reluctant to that, because she pushes her chin up towards the sky, hence fantasy.

Another verse that has changed is Recognizing time has passed. It’s part of the chorus, therefore is uttered by reality MO/ the body. It makes a lot of sense, because time is the measure of reality and of the body. Mind and fantasy are not subdued to time, therefore, on their realm, time is being denied.

Really love how the body and the mind are being portrayed. Remember when I was talking about how characters were being represented in Wuthering Heigths (the river stone and the cliff rock metaphors)? It’s how it is being done here as well. The body – that is the surface – is polished, it looks perfect, calm, strong, whereas the mind looks troubled, ravished, as if out from a battle.

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2020k’s audio analysis of good worker here.

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