iamamiwhoami – ; john


Category : art

The road to freedom goes through the sewer

Six months are worth the wait for this. Let’s see what ; john is all about.

Read these (approximate) lyrics:

Used to be clean
now I’m filthy as can be.
scrapping off
every spot

Used to be mean
now I’m good as can be.
Raise me up!
I’m your slut!

May that god of me protect my soul
as I stay a little while longer
in this dusty rabbit hole
to sing my song chained on to your bed

Used to be told
my silence is gold
Coughing up
every drop.
Used to kiss more
now I’m granting you all
stepping up,
I’m your slut

May that god of me protect my soul
as I stay a little while longer
in this dusty rabbit hole
to sing my song chained on to your bed

Used to be clean now I’m filthy as can be.

Not think of terry cloth. And of toilet paper.
Just kidding :)


a person who uses the services of a prostitute

slang for toilet

There’s you, there’s your dragon (evolution), there’s the evolution road (road to civilization – a road of continuous wandering and various choices – see the running CU choosing first the right side of this path, then jumping over it, on the left side), there’s your fear of evolution and, to be more specific, your fear of getting dirty in order to walk on this road.


One image I found very interesting when it comes to rendering the idea of the I in iamamiwhoami is the one at 01:27 – 01:43. The director did an amazing job of identifying the I with this particular CU. Fortunately, this is not the only CU, therefore, this time, CU clearly stands for any and every ONE. The ‘replacement’ is done beautifully lovely idea: I stands for any of you. The fact that the CU drifts away from this pillar only comes to sustain it.



Never forget ; john is still based on the Alraune myth and this is the loveless child at the end of 20101104:

A scientist, Professor Jakob ten Brinken, interested in the laws of heredity, impregnates a prostitute in a laboratory with the semen of a hanged murderer. The prostitute conceives a female child who has no concept of love, whom the professor adopts. The girl, Alraune, suffers from obsessive sexuality and perverse relationships throughout her life. She learns of her unnatural origins and she avenges herself against the professor. (Wikipedia)

Hence the lyrics, which definitely show how MO detaches herself from feelings that come close to what love implies (purity of love – clean, kisses). She’s not a lover, she’s a slut. I am now waiting for the revenge.

Maybe the most relevant source of inspiration for me is Hanns Heinz Ewers’ – Alraune (translation by Joe Bandel). It is amazing and I recommend it to whoever is interested in seeing where this project might be going, plot wise and meaning wise. I am going to post just an excerpt, regarding ; john:

And Mother Earth?–What is her symbol? What does she represent? She is fertility, uncle. The earth is the feminine, the woman. She takes the semen, takes it into her womb, nourishes it, lets it germinate, grow, bloom and bear fruit. So you take what is fertile like the earth herself–take a woman.

But Mother Earth is the eternal prostitute, she serves all. She is the eternal mother, is always for sale, the prostitute of billions. She refuses her lascivious love to none, offers herself gladly to anyone that will take her. Everything that lives has been fertilized in her glorious womb and she has given birth to it. It has always been this way throughout the
(above mentioned, pp 32-33)

You be the judge. Out of respect for this project, I shall go no further with quoting Heinz Ewers’ text. Search for it and read for yourself.

All I can tell you is this: after reading the book, I now understand:

- what the dogs stand for (apart from the myth)
- the meanings of: the T and Y cover, the envelope and the hair piece MTV James got (this one is really good and… mean, lol, SMART JOB, YOU GUYS!) and the hair pieces above the cradle
- why the men in the mirrors quarreled (in 6th previd)
- why 5 shades of men in the 6th previd and why 6 masks in O
- why the scene of MO on the house at the end of the 6th previd
- why ‘disciple’
- why the llama spit
- why the snail at the beginning of T
- why the hunt theme
- why those sequences of numbers
- what ‘why?‘ is actually all about
- why the forest was silver
- why the laughter during ‘in concert’
- who the golden hair boy filming in N is and also the bottle man
- whom SUTS portrayed and why he got burned
- where the dancing scenes from ‘in concert’ came from and their meaning
- the purpose of the mirror symbol
- why: ‘dress the part, it’s story telling’, ‘tell me how the story ends now’
- where the king/queen/priest/knight references come from
- who ‘u-1′ is dedicated to and why on earth ‘you can’t be the knight’
- CUs real name, possibly

…and so, so many other things. I swear to you, you will have all the answers and you will be amazed at how this JL has managed to write those wonderful lyrics in such a way that no one would ever guess. Enjoy reading! Now back to blabbing.

Alright, the video oozes sex, I have to agree. However, with iam, I believe that when sex screams right in your face (both lyrics and images simply go there, they’re as explicit as they can be), it might be about something else. I mean this video is somewhat opposite to a classical video in which the idea of sex is rendered. With the classical, concepts are suggested, with John, they’re visible and even explained. So I am 110% sure the team is actually trying to suggest other meanings and just hide them under this form. Maybe in order to prove that this type of ‘prostitution’ (selling sex via images in all media for example) is going way too far.

Right, we’re in MO’s room. White all around, walls draped bedroom style, a king size bed in the middle. Materials used? Plastic foil for the walls and toilet paper for this bed. MO’s outfit is made of what it looks like terry cloth and we can definitely see what she is trying to portray: a dominatrix. The way they use antithesis, I swear! This is not an outfit built to subdue, but to… well… clean.

Speaking of which, perfect timing for those lyrics. And for the bed. The sole purpose of toilet paper is to clean. And a bed made of toilet paper only has one purpose: to clean. What? Whatever lays on it. Bodies.

Getting back to the first stanza, I have to admit again someone is a genius of lyrics.

Used to be clean, now I’m filthy as can be, scrapping off every spot
Used to be mean, now I’m good as can be.

Having these two phrases placed one after another, their parallelism actually brings out a paradox: in the end, we understand that clean is mean and filthy is good.

To me, this remains a problem of good vs. evil, an issue of who and what exactly decides something is good or bad. Naturally, clean represents a positive trait. It means tidy, immaculate, pure, however it also means inexperienced, immature, blank, and sterile. In the same extent, filthy has a natural negative vibe, it means dirty, untidy, vulgar, obscene, even corrupted. However, to me, in this context, it also means sexy, stimulating, experienced, hence mature. It’s related to the sewer I was talking about. Maturity implies getting dirty (being aware that you have to get dirty in order to gain your freedom as an individual). That is taking matters into one’s hand and doing something with yourself, constantly changing, constantly seeking to escape boundaries, prisons (of bodies, minds, etc).

Moving forward, mean is negatively charged, however it is often used to render a positive trait (that’s mean car etc), and, in this context, again sends to the experienced part (being extremely good at sex). Then good, even though it is charged positively, in this context, and compared to mean, could be just average.

After I’ve watched the video, it was clear to me that John refers to a person who uses the services of a prostitute. Notice I have said ‘person’, not man. Reason is obvious. But is MO a denotative prostitute, or are there various connotations the concept of ‘prostitution’ can take?

I don’t believe in denotation with iam.

Prostitution is the act or practice of providing sexual services to another person in return for payment. Now leave the sex aside and replace some terms in this definition. Prostitution is the act of providing certain services to another person in return for something else.

Seller? MO. Buyer? Men and women (anyone, including you). Means of payment: jizz/milk (well, hm, your seed/innocence). Provided services? Change, in my views. Change through cleanse. Purification. Re-birth. All well hidden inside an explicit metaphor of (mean LOL) sexual intercourse.

Back to the prostitute. There’s nothing clean about a prostitute, at least in the concept itself and how it has been regarded over the years. Yet MO is not only clean, but also cleans other individuals. She’s a visual oxymoron. She’s dressed in towel material and her action completes the action of the toilet paper bed. Body is trapped between the two and is purified. I know you cannot get away from the actual sex scene, but try, lol.

Why do men and women seek for the services of prostitutes? To try new things, to fulfill hidden desires, to make the first time happen, in one phrase, to get what they lack (love, experience, rush etc). These are things which, if they’re not fulfilled, prevent these persons from their evolution. Lack of courage. The act of going to a prostitute is closely connected to feeling the shame of it. This is something one wants, yet one does not want others to know one wants. MO is playful and joyful, she draws you in, she makes you want her, she’s… ready to burst. Prostitute MO stands for hidden desire, fear, obstacle. She knows those poor souls are afraid to take the leap, she’s fierce, she looks for the camera in the waiting room, to meet their eyes and make their spines freeze. Check them out, covering their faces, sitting down, crouched, waiting for their turn. Yet she’ll be the one to ‘release’ whatever lies inside them. The sexual act, the cleansing act, it enables change, re-birth. When she opens the door to take another in, the way she reaches for his hand (palm right up, waiting for his) is actually very mild. This is an invitation and the man is only to make a choice. Notice how his posture is changed when he enters her room. He becomes more relaxed. That’d be Claes, the first one, btw, haha. Aaaaaaand he takes a left. Is that the right way?

I really like how they portray the change by slipping in two images, first  showing weakness of one’s initial state (shame of one’s body, fear – psychological weakness) and then strength after re-birth (physical strength, right posture of body and relaxed attitude):



Since I was talking about the ‘waiting room’, that room is made of polystyrene. I’m going to leave aside the fact that it reminds me of the ‘white pearls’ in u-2. The purpose of polystyrene is to prevent things from breaking. Valuable things. I’m thinking minds, in our context. We do not want the core to be affected by the cleanse, do we? We just want the mind to be deflowered. Penetrated. That is to be opened. Mindfucking, I know.

Another interesting thing about polystyrene is that it takes the shape of the objects they protect. I can see some intriguing patterns, yet I haven’t tried to find out anything, it’s just the idea I was interested in.

LE:Polystyrene can be recycled, and has the number “6″ as its recycling symbol” (Unplugged70)

A prostitute to open our minds. Art sold for the purpose of making change happen, hence evolution happen. (May that god of me protect my soul /as I stay a little while longer/in this dusty rabbit hole/to sing my song to your bed – ok, fine, I’ll take the wrath of my god, I’ll sing/sell another song for/to you, if that’d help you become aware of the things I have said in the past). Possibly.

Ah, about minds… I think the gesture of unwinding one’s hair (02:37) is a synonym of opening one’s mind, letting thought flow. Sensuality connotation left aside, again :)

One’s body is the epitome of one’s limits. While mind can travel and cannot be touched by the action of certain factors (time and space, for example), body needs help to be able to survive. Art has always taught us we cannot have limits. The change these androgynous CUs are taking is just for that. To break boundaries. To me, what is hidden in those plastic bags is what needs to be protected from the somewhat violent change. That would be one’s core, one’s self, one’s I. In the process of escaping our limits, our reason must be protected, for example. Selves, identities cannot get dirty. Dirt is corruption and corrupted identities cannot be I’s, but ‘others’. If you look at 07:41, that’s our old Y shape of a vagina, which now really resembles a human shape, head, shoulders and trunk. You can clearly see that, after the CUs have changed their clothes/skins, they put them in plastic bags and they place them in what I make the head of the shape, while they move forward trough what I would consider the body of the shape. Both CUs and their plastic bags will meet later on, after experiencing the filth in the ‘sewer’ (difficulty of the change – death, for example).

The end of the human shaped tunnel is equivalent to making a choice. Notice the first man going through. He first looks to the left and then he turns right and takes that path. Shame we cannot see what choice the woman makes, she seems to be lingering for a long time inside the tunnel.

Lovely way to render the idea of equal bodies. After the ‘skins’ are off, CUs are wearing what I would call a ‘uniform’ (white undies and socks nothing else), hence they are unified signifiers. They stop representing men and women, they are just individuals. Androgens. Heck… maybe after resurrection, suts will come back as sutsella! Kidding, I just like how they portrayed that. The difference between man and woman is that plastic bag.

I wonder if I’d go too far to call these CUs the heroes I was talking about in my previous articles. After all, they are undergoing a process of rebirth, they are going through hell (prostitute, as filth), meeting their darkest selves (their own prostituted selves), facing themselves (shedding their skins and cleansing themselves) in order to come out changed and ready to produce changes.

Re-occurring themes and motifs:

I absolutely love the sequences involving the dog. The fact that the dog is filmed running makes me think it is somewhat connected to CU in the beginning. As if it’d run to meet him.

However, the more interesting thing about it is the fact that the director chose to portray it in six different scenes, with six different backgrounds, which I am pretty sure could mean a thing or two. I mean I have been given the impression that this run is actually a metaphorical recollection of the six BOUNTY videos:


That would be the house in B. I say this because someone opens the door so the dog comes out. Also, the fence screams domesticity. Screams ‘home’. LE: that’d rather be the door at the end of 20101104.


That to me would be the pot house in O. Because of the air conditioning system and the need of a ventilated industrial space. Mh… might be a little bit forced though.


This might sound far fetched as well, but the huge fence blocking our view reminds me of the break of u-1 and u-2 and of the time when duality became clearer and clearer.


The only thing I can say to relate this to N is the presence of this tree trunk tree as the representation of Nature taking over or taking its rightful place inside the city walls. If anyone could find a better analogy, be my guest.


That is definitely the forest in T.


And those would be the great white walls of Y. Notice the presence of number 6 once more.

Water remains a very important motif with iamamiwhoami. Strongly connected to the idea of birth, water is now present in the process of rebirth/change. This time, under the form of a small river. The main purpose of water in John is to give guidance and to flow the new bodies out. It might be filthy water, but it is water still. And it’s even better if it’s filthy, because it conceals the body, keeps it hidden during the great escape. This resembles the amniotic liquid, of course. Connect it to the second ‘urban’ meaning of John and there you have it: bodies flushed into new life.

Believe it or not, the mirror is also present in John, this time under the form of a TV screen. Hence image travels only one way and does not reflect anything back, nor does it let anything go back through it. This means the message is meant to go in one direction only. Message is just transmitted, no feedback requested.

I absolutely love how MO is portrayed in all videos and I’m referring to her… should I say dressing code? Damn right. It’s IS a code!!! Those jumpsuits speak more about who/what she embodies than thousands of words! Big congratulations to whoever makes those costumes, I bet JL has tons of ideas, I cannot wait for more. The concept of functional removable skin is absolutely amazing and it is a great way of rendering the idea of identity switch/ multiple identity. I said it before and I’ll say it again: hope the jumpsuits become a MO trademark.

; John cover


The cover is typical for iam. It’s wonderful they’re continuing on the palpable texture thing. This time, terry cloth. Direct connection to cleaning/cleansing. Writing code is similar, which can only make me happy. John appears to be the first item in an enumeration of more, hence there seem to be more videos to come. If we’re to follow the pattern, at least 5 in this bunch.

If you like, I consider the ringing phone in the end to be anther assurance that this goes on. Speaking of which, at first I thought the damn phone is going to ring around six times and be answered, but it rings more than that and it stops right in the middle of the ringing sound. Also, there are actually two sounds which are repeated. They gave me the impression the CUs are called for this ‘mission’ (suts style) and counted.

I keep playing this track, it’s on repeat, and it definitely gives me a feeling of freedom. I’m happy when I listen to it.

PS: I just made the greatest mistake when I started to write this post today: I wrote ‘; John’ instead of ‘; john’. There’s no capital J in iam’s ; john. That is not a name. It’s a signifier.

If you take a close look at the ‘hangers room’, that appears to be some sort of ‘black skin’ on the left side. I immediately thought of the black mandragora and of the lyrics used to be clean, now i’m filthy. If that’s what the CUs place in their bags, I can only think that their evil selves is what they’re flushing away.


Dots (holes) and lines (tubes) seem to play an important part in this video. To me, they make tunnels and they are closely related to the idea of change/cleanse.


As a new means of punctuation, I would mention the presence of the ellipsis – ‘…’ – which mark an intentional omission of a word (in writing)/something, often indicating a pause in thought/concept, an unfinished thought or, placed at the end of a discourse, a trailing off into silence. Of course, with iam, I could easily assume it means ‘and so forth’ or simply ‘no comment’. I guess we shall see.

Purchase ; John on iTunes.

I purchased Joe Bandel’s version of ‘Alraune’ here.

A very well written review of the track from 2020k. I love it when dudes know about sounds.
First ;john remix by eineinmeier
Unplugged70’s lovely collage – Give me to drink Mandragora – man, I love this!

iamamiwhoami – Evolution of the Dragon – A Dissertation


Category : Food for Thought, art

The dragon was primarily a personification of the life-giving and life-destroying powers of water.

Keywords: evolution, dragon, civilization, mankind, placenta, fravashi, foetus, birth, re-birth, burning incense, libation, Great Mother, King, Knight, warrior, weapon, time, moon, sun, Aphrodite, Argus Panoptes, fertility, goddess, myth, archetype, water, blood, sap, murder, end of man, God, Trinity, good, evil, immortality, shell, cephalopod, mummification, embalming, tomb, statue, petrification, death-mask, totemism, soul, vital principle, culture,  reproduction, maternity, cow, goat, animism, deification, reanimation


This post is based on The Evolution of the Dragon, by G. Elliot Smith. The text is used for educational purposes only and, even though I would like to post a great quantity of it in here, it would be impossible to follow. Hence I have chosen the most eloquent paragraphs and added my annotations in order to connect them to the topic of our discussion.

I shall start by telling you that you should look at the dragon as a metaphor of civilization, Elliot Smith’s book trying to explain the evolution of mankind by linking it to the evolution of the archetype of the water and the myth of the dragon. If you want, it’s something like the evolution of the Little Red Riding Hood tale, only closely related to the way iamamiwhoami is presented.

It’s hard to begin with something in particular, but I shall keep the order of the author’s dissertation, even if it doesn’t strictly follow the order of events in the iamami videos.

I. Incense and Libations

This chapter is concerned with the genesis of this biological theory of water and its relationship to the other germs of civilisation.

As I have mentioned before, water is the ultimate archetype and this is what the author begins with.

In the earliest records from Egypt and Babylonia it is customary to portray a king’s beneficence by representing him initiating irrigation works. In course of time he came to be regarded, not merely as the giver of the water which made the desert fertile, but as himself the personification and the giver of the vital powers of water. The fertility of the land and the welfare of the people thus came to be regarded as dependent upon the king’s vitality.

As expected, the author begins with a view upon water as the basic element of life in the form of the amniotic fluid. From here, he is developing on the terms of  the fravashi, and that of the ka, who are suggested by the placenta and the fœtal membranes. In his opinion,

The fravashinourishes and protects” (p. 57): it is “the nurse” (p. 58): it is always feminine (p. 58). It is in fact the placenta, and is also associated with the functions of the Great Mother. This is the term we shall refer to when we’re speaking of our beloved MO. Great Mother is the inaugurator of the year, and in virtue of her physiological (uterine) functions the moon-controlled measurer of the month.

In connection to the dragon, fravashi is the divine and immortal spirit that possesses a man and shapes his conduct and regulates his behaviour. The foetus membrane is connected to the masculine and the feminine elements because it is the product of both. The child.

Continuing the idea of nourishment, the author speaks about two Egyptian customs encountered in the process of mummification. Yes, you heard me right, I will talk about mummies, but you’ll be surprised, as iamamiwhoami does too! As the author explains, the practice of mummification is very important to the development of civilization, however, I have in mind not merely the influence it exerted upon the moulding of culture, but also the part played by the trend of philosophy in the world at large in determining the Egyptian’s conceptions of the wider significance of embalming, and the reaction of these effects upon the current doctrines of the meaning of natural phenomena.

You see, Egyptians believe the corpse is the means of securing a continuance of existence, thus the process of mummification representing that corpse receiving the quality of immortality. This is why ancient kings were mummified, and even more, turned into stone, as special care was taken to protect the dead and this led to the invention of coffins, and to the making of a definite tomb. The road looks quite simple: human being/mortality>>king>>mummification>>deification>>God/immortality.

Embalming plays a very important role in this transformation, because it basically enables the body to be preserved, therefore immortal. Once mummified, the body no longer became desiccated and preserved by the forces of nature as so often happened when it was placed in a simple grave directly in the hot dry sand (’rest in the quick sand’). The dead king also became more real when he was represented by an actual embalmed body and a life-like statue, sitting in state upon his throne and holding in his hands the emblems of his high office.

To me, the wrapping scene in N is actually an act of mummification, that is of body preservation, of a try to make the body immortal. The fact that MO really looks embalmed (treated with all sort of substances) comes to sustain my opinion. Also, Egyptian kings/gods are presented both laying down, like the MO on the table of six or on the shrine in N, or sitting up, like MO in Y. Petrified mummies. This belief of kings dwelling in stones merges with the Knights turned into stones from “.”, and it is, of course, connected to the idea of immortality and rebirth.

Later on, this practice developed of substituting for the real things models, or even pictures, of animals or vegetables and these objects and pictures were restored to life or reality by means of a ritual. Hence the concept of animism (which comes from animus, soul). This concept is very important if we think of the use of animals in the iamamiwhoami videos, especially in the concert scene at the table, where animals are literally animated. The idea is yet connected to the dead restored to life – animated – via their totems, the animals.

GES continues with a very beautiful remark: our own children talk in an animistic fashion. But is not this due in some measure to the unconscious influence of their elders? This is very interesting, because it is connected to the pageant video linked in one of the pre-vids description. Those little girls are the embodiment of the primitive man, who has no notions whatsoever, just an instinct. Hence: The child certainly resembles primitive man in the readiness with which it attributes to even the crudest models of animals or human beings the feelings of living creatures. Was the final scene of the animals sitting at the table a return to the primitive man? Yes, it was, because this is what rebirth is all about. Starting from zero, re-building notions.

Moving on… The Egyptian embalmer was clearly inspired by two ideals: (a) to preserve the actual tissues of the body with a minimum disturbance of its superficial appearance; and (b) to preserve a likeness of the deceased as he was in life. If the first problem is solved through the use of certain substances, the second was solved by the use of masks. Death-masks to be more precise.  A life-size portrait statue of the dead man’s head placed along with the actual body in the burial chamber. These “reserve heads,” as they have been called, were usually made of fine limestone, but Junker found one made of Nile mud. This definitely reminds me of the 6 masks at the end of O.

The corpse of the deceased is dry and shrivelled. To revivify it the vital fluids that have exuded from it [in the process of mummification] must be restored, for not till then will life return and the heart beat again. This, so the texts show us, was believed to be accomplished by offering libations to the accompaniment of incantations. This is why the masks at the end of O look like they had fluids poured over them. It’s part of the process of mummification. Just as water, when applied to the apparently dead seed, makes it germinate and come to life, so libations can reanimate the corpse. The general fertilizing power of water when applied to the soil found specific exemplification in the potency of the seminal fluid to fertilize human beings. And isn’t this what the six CUs are doing in concert during u-2? They’re performing an act of offering libation. As both the earth and women could be fertilized by water they were homologized one with the other. The earth came to be regarded as a woman, the Great Mother.

Directly linked to the idea of fertilization, ancient cultures believed that the external organ of reproduction from which the child emerged at birth was the actual creator of the child, not merely the giver of birth but also the source of life. This is why we see MO emerging from the tree (which happens to resemble the feminine external organ of reproduction and not the… uterus), as Aphrodite emerged from a shell (which happens to resemble the same thing, but by no means is the source). Thus, the cowry-shell having life-giving and birth-giving virtues.

Following the evolution of this symbol, GES shows us how the Great Mother stops being identified with the cowry-shell and, as she embodies Hathor (the form of a real woman), she’s later identified with a cow. A cow? Why, yes, of course, MO seems to have hooves in the last Pre-vid!

The cow is really important in this context, if you ask me. I mean we have the hooves MO, but we also have the milk-lady MO in N, it’s clear, they’ve portrayed her literally milking herself. So the first connection I made after reading GES was that MO does stand for a cow metaphorically. Now the only cow with a great meaning in Greek mythology is Io, a young priestess (!!!) who was Zeus’ mistress and who was turned by jealous Hera into a cow. Now the interesting thing comes, because Argus, the 100 eyes monster was the one who was supposed to watch her. To me, the bottle man in N is the embodiment of Argus, all covered in ‘eyes’.

The two processes, the burning incense and the libation, are both linked to the use of water, or should I say source of life. According to GES, incense is not merely the ‘odour of the god,’ but the grains of resin are said to be the god’s sweat. Both rites, the pouring of libations and the burning of incense, are performed for the same purpose—to revivify the body [or the statue] of god and man by restoring to it its lost moisture. Among the most obtrusive evidences of death were the coldness of the skin, the lack of perspiration and of the odour of the living. The burning of incense before a corpse or statue was intended to convey to it the warmth, the sweat, and the odour of life. As the grains of incense consisted of the exudation of trees, or, as the ancient texts express it, “their sweat,” the divine power of animation in course of time became transferred to the trees. The reason why the deity which dwelt in these trees was usually identified with the Great Mother. Sweat? Resin on the trees? Sap? We do have MO licking the trees in search of nourishment in one of the pre-vids and we do have her ‘sweating’ the source of life in T. Even more: Taoist seekers after immortality transplanted that animation into themselves by consuming the resin of those trees, which, apparently, they looked upon as coagulated soul-substance, the counterpart of the blood in men and animals. What more could you ask? Iamami’s interpretation of this was perfect!!!

That’s probably the reason for which CU himself has a taste of his own god-like fluid. The sap of trees was brought into relationship with life-giving water and thus constituted another link with Osiris. The sap was also regarded as the blood of trees and the incense that exuded as the sweat. Just as the water of libation was regarded as the fluid of the body of Osiris, so also, by this process of rationalization, the incense came to possess a similar significance.

Fluid is what runs through all living things on this Earth, this is why it is considered the source of life. According to several Sanskrit texts, this vital principle flows out of women in their monthly period under the form of blood (we have that with iam, blood on snow), out of men in the process of ejaculation, as their seed (CU and his happy moments), out of water in disgusting foam (we have that in the ‘whale’ pre-video), out of trees in their sap (in the ‘owl’ pre-vid and under the form of milk later on) and out of the earth in salt soil.

In his attempt to explain the concept of totemism, GES continues: The soul of a human being is generally conceived [by the[Pg 39] Chinese] as possessing the shape and characteristics of a human being, and occasionally those of an animal. But plant spirits are never conceived as plant-shaped, nor to have plant-characters … whenever forms are given them, they are mostly represented as a man, a woman, or a child. Amongst the stories of souls of men taking up their residence in and animating trees and plants, the human being is usually a woman, accompanied by “a fox, a dog, an old raven or the like”. Hence the Aphrodite cult, the animation of the anthropoid plant, its human cry, its association with a beautiful maiden and a dog. We’re getting closer.

Moving on with his dissertation, GES tried to explain what I called the myth of androgyny with iamamiwhoami: Mother “Goddess” and the more distinctly anthropoid Water “God,” which originally developed quite independently the one of the other, ultimately came to exert a profound and mutual influence, so that many of the attributes which originally belonged to one of them came to be shared with the other. Many factors played a part in this process of blending and confusion of sex. Do we have this with MO? We do. And we even have it materialized, not just in the myth itself. Read my analysis of u-1.

GES continues his book with a subchapter called The Breath of Life. After the body has been embalmed, mummified, petrified and watered, it only needs one more thing to become immortal: the breath of life, the presence or absence of which is the most obvious distinction between the animate and the inanimate, the “ghost” (GHOST?!!!!!) which a man “gives up” at death. Soul. It’s the only thing that ensures re-birth. The inception of this breath is done through a ceremony called ‘the opening of the mouth’. GES mentions something which you are all familiar with: The god Ptah created man by modelling his form in clay. Similarly the life-giving sculptor made the portrait which was to be the means of securing a perpetuation of existence, when it was animated by the “opening of the mouth,” by libations and incense. The modeling his form in clay is a reference to the masks in O and… I could easily look at the holes in the trees as mouths being open in order to receive life. Also, CU is opening his mouth right after he loses his fluids. He’s self sustained. He’s self sufficient God (by will or by circumstances).

Since we’re talking about the soul, the idea of the ‘soul’ was based upon the attempts to interpret the phenomena of dreams and shadows. A man’s shadow or his reflection in water or a mirror has been interpreted as his double.

When an infant is born it is accompanied by the after-birth or placenta to which it is linked by the umbilical cord. In this case, the placenta functions as his other. His alter ego. After the birth of a king, he is accompanied by a comrade or twin exactly reproducing all his features. Their destinies are closely linked. The placenta, or rather its ghost, would have been supposed by the Ancient Egyptians to be closely connected with the individual’s personality because the placenta was composed of blood, which was regarded as the material of consciousness and intelligence. The placenta is credited with all the varieties of life-giving potency that are attributed to the Mother-Goddess. It therefore controls the welfare of the individual and, like all maternal amulets ensures his good fortune. May all good things come to you!

Since we’re at a point in which we are talking about one’s self and one’s other self, it’s time to see GES’s opinion upon the yin and yang. According to the ancient Chinese, man has two souls. One is the material soul, which emanates from the terrestrial part of the universe and is formed of yin substance. In living man it operates under the name of p’oh, and on his death it returns to the earth and abides with the deceased in his grave. The other is the immaterial soul, which emanates from the ethereal celestial part of the cosmos and consists of yang substance. When operating actively in the living human body, it is called khi or “breath,” and hwun; when separated from it after death it lives forth as a refulgent spirit. They are both represented in iamamiwhoami.

Carrying oooon… now that the body also has a soul, it needs to communicate to the exterior. Hence the next chapter of the book: The Power of the Eye. The embalmer paints the eyes on the mummy. That would really mean it has been enliven. The appearance of living eyes, to create a living image of a god/king. Did you ever consider the black Mandragora as resembling a mummy with painted eyes? Why do you think they stress so much upon the eyes with iamamiwhoami? It’s the animating power of the eye. As death was regarded as a kind of sleep and the closing of the eyes was the distinctive sign of the latter condition the open eyes were not unnaturally regarded as clear evidence of wakefulness and life. Isn’t MO suddenly opening her eyes in Y, right after she has become black and died? It’s like the restoration of the eyes to a mummy or statue, equivalent to an awakening to life. Add that to the analogy between the closing and opening of the eyes and the changes of day and night and you have the entire picture. The act of crying in concert, when she gathers the ashes is again, moisturizing the body. I cannot leave the eyes aside until I mention the fact that the use of the same objects to symbolize the female reproductive organs and the eyes may have played some part in transferring to the latter the fertility of the former. I am talking about the shape of the trees when they seem to have eyes. That’s a direct connection between eyes and fertility, the first enabling the latter. That’s why trees come to life, opening their eyes in the hut. Because the large lumps shaped like eyes on trees are tree-tears, therefore an act of incense (bringing to life) is performed.

GES pays a special tribute to the archetype of the moon, which is connected to fertilization and woman in general. All goddesses were connected to the moon. Special attention was first devoted to the moon when agricultural pursuits compelled men to measure time and determine the seasons. The influence of the moon on water, both the tides and dew, brought it within the scope of the then current biological theory of fertilization. (Wanting higher/‘Til the moon forces us to climb back down, I’d rather stay, I’d rather let us drown – duality high-down, as the movement of fertilization). He moves forward and explains the sun and the stars as well, in short the Sun being Horus, and the stars the spirits of the dead. Iamamiwhoami makes reference to the stars many times: Throw my body at the stars, Underneath the stars her body’s sinking etc.Now that we’re talking about stars, isn’t this what the ‘asterisk’ (etymologically ‘little star‘) tag could be referring at?

One thing of great importance might be the fact that the sun god was represented as an obelisk (a phallic symbol, like the bottle in u-2) which pointed to heaven and “drew down” the dazzling rays of the sun, reflected from its polished surface, so that all the worshippers could see the manifestations of the god in his temple. If you watch u-2 again, it makes sense.

The image of the sun is held up by a man whose body is partly hidden, and two men, seated opposite to each other in the foreground. This rings a bell of the O representation in the concert with MO sitting on a ‘pillar’ in front of a ‘sun’, having a hidden body and two men, seated opposite to each other etc etc etc

The next subchapter of the book refers to The Worship of the Cow and I am linking that to the Welcome Home pre-video. The cow is considered a foster-mother of mankind. The fundamental factor in the development of this association of the cow and the Mother-Goddess was the fact of the use of milk as food for human beings. Also, the use of cattle blood as sustenance for the dead. Cattle blood was used in the act of libation: Libations are poured out (SAP); incense is burnt (SUTS); the bleeding right fore-leg of a buffalo constitutes the blood-offering. When the deity is reanimated by these procedures and its consciousness restored by the blood-offering (blood in welcome-home pre-vid), it can hear appeals and speak. The ‘I AM written in blood is this ‘I am animated, I have come to life’. It’s that level of the I that I was talking about in ‘Identity in iamamiwhoami’.

I won’t go further into this, I’m just interested in explaining the presence of the hooves, you can read the book if you’d like.

II. Dragons and Rain Gods

I know… this is a long road. It’s been a year since the beginning, thought, it might just be like this. But I am telling you the rewards won’t cease to appear, so if you’re not bored yet, go ahead. Here’s how this chapter starts:

An adequate account of the development of the dragon-legend would represent the history of the expression of mankind’s aspirations and fears during the past fifty centuries and more. For the dragon was evolved along with civilization itself. The search for the elixir of life, to turn back the years from old age and confer the boon of immortality. (A backwards march, my back against, meadows of fear, where it all began)

Could you ask for more? How about something about dreams since that’s the way we can aspire towards our highest desires?

In his waking state man restrains his roving fancies and exercises what Freud has called a “censorship” over the stream of his thoughts: but when he falls asleep, the “censor” dozes also. The men entering a state of dream in B is what this is all about. Breaking the boundaries, bending time, eliminating censorship.

The dragon has been identified with all of the gods and all of the demons of every religion. Remember that you are to think of the dragon as to civilization itself. Doesn’t it make sense at all times? It has been homologized with each of the members of the earliest Trinity, the Great Mother (MO), the Water God (CU), and the Warrior Sun God (BABY).

The weapon with which the hero slays the dragon is also homologous both with him and his victim, for it is animated by him who wields it, and its powers of destruction make it a symbol of the same power of evil which it itself destroys. This is the Knight and his self destruction action. He is both the slayer and the slayed, his weapons destroy both the enemy and himself. That’s why he’s one with the forest trees, yet he destroys them. Because, in the end, evil has the same power as good. A paradox of contradictions. Hence all three members of the Trinity were identified, not only with the dragon, but also with the hero who was the dragon-slayer. Isn’t it clear now what the Knight stands for? The early Trinity as the hero, armed with the Trinity as weapon, slays the dragon, which again is the same Trinity. Perfect way to summarize it!

The fundamental element in the dragon’s powers is the control of water. (water as the ultimate archetype) Both in its beneficent and destructive aspects water was regarded as animated by the dragon, (we have both instances in the iamami videos: beneficent, in the form of sap, milk – goddess’ sweat, foetus fluid etc; and destructive: the water in which the body drowns)

But if in the West the dragon is usually a “power of evil,” in the far East he is equally emphatically a symbol of beneficence. He is identified with emperors and kings; he is the son of heaven the bestower of all bounties, not merely to mankind directly, but also to the earth as well. This West vs. East distinction is connected directly to the evil vs. good, left vs. right dualities. It has been settled by convenience that the right side of anything is the good side and the left side is the evil side. That’s what I was talking about with u-1 and the broken mirror, where the MO is portrayed on the right, while CU sits on the left.

Hell in medieval art is a dragon with gaping jaws, belching fire.” If you think of it, what the concert does is to draw an imaginary dragon, where the tail is the beginning of the concert and the mouth is the end, as it is ‘belching fire’. This is also the faith of mankind. World would end by fire. Again, the series of events in the pre-vids – from birth to re-birth – can be considered as elements forming this dragon, the animals presented in the vids providing certain parts of this creature. Even the sequence sent to MTV James looks like a dragon if you want. Meaning this plus this plus this made civilization as it is nowadays. As these parts construct the dragon, the links of the BOUNTY videos come to deconstruct it, each of them sending towards a negatively charged event. Thus the dragon – the world, the man, the culture, the civilization – is made both of good and evil, a balance being vital for the dragon’s existence.

Confucius said (no, seriously!!!): As to the dragon, we cannot understand his riding on the wind and clouds and his ascending to the sky. This, I believe, refers to the inability of the human being to perceive changes as they happen, therefore to SEE evolution as it happens. Only history can portray it, by listing these changes. The giant stepping on our tiny world could be this dragon, evolution itself, which we cannot perceive. Ants are not aware of our existence, to make a comparison. The dragon had the power of hiding itself in a cloak of invisibility. This reminds me of the fog in the concert. If mankind cannot see evolution, it cannot see the end either, for it is foggy. Just like Suts hasn’t seen his death.

The fact that water and through it the dragon has both a destructive and a constructive qualities, only comes to remind me of how water is portrayed with iamamiwhoami: as constructive, in its shape of the nurturing fluids and destructive in how it is portrayed in 20101104, scene in the bathtub. The antithesis between the two aspects of the character of these ancient deities is most pronounced in the case of the other member of this most primitive Trinity, the Great Mother. She was the great beneficent giver of life, but also the controller of life, which implies that she was the death-dealer. (no wonder the way MO is portrayed during the concert, especially during O, when she sheds her giver of life garment and remains in the death dealer outfit.) She is both cow and lioness. Hathor in her cow manifestation is usually benevolent and as a lioness a power of destruction (this makes me wonder whether the wrath of flowers on her green outfit isn’t a representation of a lioness’ mane- which is a rare case and it is caused by certain dysfunctions. Yet we do see her claws very well, when she puts on the gloves. And we see the benevolent MO (cow hooves) in the last pre-vid, where she basically welcomes us in her home).

I suggest you read the chapter The Dragon Myth. It’s too valuable and I cannot post it here entirely. It explains everything. Long story short, the Great Mother changes sides and becomes a murderer because she has to provide the king with the nourishment (human blood), the elixir of life. She was so evil, that the king decided to have her ‘sedated’, placing her under the influence of a mandrake syrup, so that she can see that there’s also another way of providing the elixir besides killing.

The subchapter The Thunder Weapon refers to the weapons of the trinity. They (the weapons)“shine at night” because the original weapon of destruction was the moon as the Eye of Re. They “burn with inward fire,” like the Babylonian Marduk, when in the fight with the dragon Tiamat “he filled his body with burning flame” (King, op. cit., p. 71), because they were fire, the fire of the sun and of lightning, the fire spat out by the Eye of Re. (I am fire I am damage in the making/ I am an army set out to control… – I can clearly see the connection!!!)

In King’s “Babylonian Religion” we are told how the gods provided Marduk with an invincible weapon in preparation for the combat with the dragon: and the ancient scribe himself sets forth a series of its homologues:

He made ready his bow
He slung a spear
The bow and quiver …
He set the lightning in front of him,
With burning flame he filled his body.
(That would be the Knight and his weapons)

Speaking of weapons, the winged disk has been mentioned too many times in this book, not to represent anything in the iamamiwhoami concept. This might be the disk MO’s sitting in front of in O during concert The ‘wing’ characteristic being given by the sheets of paper looking like feathers. The image also appears in B, under the form of the two fans on the wall above Mo’s piano. If you take a look at the visual representations of the term in this book, you’ll see what I mean. It is the commonest symbol of life-giving and beneficent protective power: yet it is the weapon used to slaughter mankind.

One very important aspect of this book is contained in the subchapter Certain Incidents in the Dragon Myth, and I will only mention this: iron is regarded as peculiarly lethal to the monsters. This seems to be due to the part played by the “smiths” who forged iron weapons with which Horus overcame Set and his followers. Thus we have the foil to stand for iron!!!! The appearance of metal played a very important part in the evolution of mankind and it did bring both good and evil with it. It all makes sense now.

III. The Birth of Aphrodite

I am tired too, but I have to finish this.

The main connection between Aphrodite and the Great Mother is the fact that they are both signified by shells, that is they’re both goddesses of fertility. Also, the meaning of the myth of Aphrodite’s birth from the sea—the germs of which are at least fifty centuries old—can be decided by the omission of any representation of the sea in the decoration of a pot made in the fifth century b.c.! (a pot? Hmmmmmmmmm)

Also, the original Great Mother was nothing more than a cowry-shell used as a life-giving amulet; and that Aphrodite’s shell-associations were a survival of the earliest phase in the Great Mother’s history. The mandrake was clearly a surrogate of the shell or vice versa. The problem to be solved was to decide which amulet was responsible for suggesting the process of life-giving. The goddess Aphrodite was closely related to Cyprus; the mandrake was a magical plant there.

The chapter The Search of the Elixir of life. Blood as Life. Is more than eloquent! Man impresses with the persistence with which, throughout the whole of his career, man (of the species sapiens) has been seeking for an elixir of life, to give added “vitality” to the dead, to prolong the days of active life to the living, to restore youth, and to protect his own life from all assaults, not merely of time, but also of circumstance. In other words, the elixir he sought was something that would bring “good luck” in all the events of his life ( may all good things in life come to you). The primitive man refused to contemplate or to entertain the possibility of life coming to an end. That’s why the aborigines have all these customs of re-birth and resurrection.

Subchapter Sharks and Dragons explains how the archetype of the shark has slowly evolved into the archetype of the dog-fish and eventually into the archetype of the dog, its connection to the myth of the Mandragora being developed further more. GES also makes a connection of the dog (Anubius) and the placenta, as it is part of the ritual of rebirth.

The Mother Pot speaks about birth. The woman in reproduction was no longer regarded as the real parent of mankind, but as the matrix in which the seed was planted and nurtured during the course of its growth and development. ( remember the keywords in the pre-vids? foetus natal nourish cortex amniotic fluid umbilical cord lay roe nest ) Hence in the earliest Egyptian hieroglyphic writing the picture of a pot of water was taken as the symbol of womanhood, the “vessel” which received the seed. (and there’s the pot in our story too)

Artemis and the Guardian portal of the Dead explains the origin of the Hebrew word for mandrakes and the allusion to “a basket of figs” in the Book of Jeremiah. The life-giving powers attributed to “love-apples” and the association of these ideas with the fig-tree may have facilitated the transference of these attributes of “apples” to those actually growing upon a tree. (these are the fruits that fall from the trees in the previds.)

Another interesting approach is the analogy between birth and the emergence from the door of a house or the gateway of a temple. Artemis, for instance, is a goddess of the portal, and is not only a helper in childbirth, but also grows in her garden a magical herb which is capable of opening locks. (this is very interesting, because we do have many many doors in the iamamiwhoami videos, especially in B, where we also have a cradle and a ‘winged disk’, materialized by the two fans on the walls above her piano.)

The legend of the treasure-house of pearls (as fruits of the shells) which was under the guardianship of the great “giver of life” and of which she kept the magic key. She was in fact the feminine form of Janus, the doorkeeper who presided over all beginnings, whether of birth, or of any kind of enterprise or new venture, or the commencement of the year (like Hathor). Janus was the guardian of the door of Olympus itself, the gate of rebirth into the immortality of the gods.

What is Cu doing in u-2? He’s basically breaching the realm of gods, making a door in the walls of the temple, and he starts searching for the elixir of life. He wants to be immortal. Those white little balls are the pearls, he’s in the treasure house of pearls!!!!

The Mandrake is a subchapter which is also interesting, yet not as explanatory as I would have like. However, I’ve got enough explanations today so I should be grateful!


I hope you saw the sign for the mandrake. It looks familiar, doesn’t it?

And the connection to the Great Mother again: the mandrake was called dūdā’īm by the Hebrews because it was identified with the Mother Pot. The symbolism involved in the use of the Hebrew word also suggests that the inspiration may have come from Egypt, where a woman was called “a pot of water” or “a basket of figs”.

The explanation of the name: the derivation of the word “mandragora” is  compounded of the words mandros, “sleep,” and agora, “object or substance,” and that mandragora means “the sleep-producing substance”. We knew that, we’ve seen it in B.

The last subchapter is called The Measurement of Time and it deals with the Great Mother standing for the moon, the ultimate measurer of time (the six phases of the moon, as the phases a woman’s body goes through etc. The goddess of birth and death controlled and measured the lives of mankind. This to me is embodied perfectly in the last song of the concert, when she sings about TIME. Read about it in The Journey of the Mandragora Officinarum.

The analogy between TIME and the MOON is more than  convenient and it is what ‘.’ portrays in its  lyrics.

The ultimate effect of the moon at night is to  illuminate the things surrounding us in a special  way, giving everything around a surface resembling  stone. This could be the reason for the lyrics  ‘Turns knights into stone’ or even ‘turn NIGHTS into  stone’. If you’ve ever seen the moon reflecting in a  river at night (or any manifestation of water  whatsoever), you must have noticed that the surface  of the water is transformed and looks  metal-like. It’s transformed into a mirror. Also, the  way the shadow is cast upon things in nature is  modified. On one side of a tree, it resembles  metal-like foil, while the other is a growing  shadow.

Same thing in the case of the river. The  moon reflecting itself in a river draws another  river in that river. A river of fire. ‘.’ lyrics make even more sense  now, don’t they? The moon and time are almost one  and the same thing. MO moving through the forest in Y is Great Mother having been born and receiving the qualities of the Moon. Also, this is the explanation  for the foiled forest and the foiled knight.

From a psychological point of view, the moon is said to bring out what’s underneath surfaces through its quality of ‘reflecting’ what’s inside. Transferred to human beings, it’s a reflection of the subconscious and whatever lies inside it. This is why the knight is looking upwards in Y (like he’s afraid of this light) and he becomes confused, afraid of what is being reflected (him actually being the king in disguise), hence him killing the surrounding ‘eyes’ and himself.

All these taken into account, the answer to the riddle in ‘.’ is also MOON.

Is iamamiwhoami based of pagan symbols? Yes

Goat gives birth to this dragon and nourishes it through her placenta, the owl protects it, the whale provides incense and libation, the bee builds its stone coffin, the llama gives it the breath of life, and the monkey animates it. If so, goat is the one who came with the idea and fed it, the owl is his close sustainer, the whale is the financial provider, the llama is the authority/rep who gives it the ultimate boost, the monkey is J, who animates it and represents its image and the bee is the director, because he’s the architect. Or something like that LOL

Is there anything else to come from them? Yes, they’re following the ‘measurement of the year’ and they need to enclose the circle, that is to come back to Yule, to come back to hexagram 17, The Quest.

In conclusion, this is a very interesting read all the concerned should have, because, even though it does not contain everything about the iamamiwhoami concept, it certainly clarifies many MANY things and it definitely portrays the concept of evolution as seen by the team. This I am sure of.

The source for the text.

The source of the picture.

If you’re interested, you can ask me for my annotations on the entire text by contacting me via youtube channel (Forsaken0rder). It contains highlighted paragraphs and explanations, which will save you reading time.

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